I think about the past 10 years of my life and consider it a complete turn around.
My mother passing away…. Getting married….. Having three AWESOME HAPPY HOOLIGAN CHILDREN… Buying, fixing up, having a house fire, and selling a handful of houses…. Living in a 5th wheel for a y ear…… Getting divorced (filing for it.. trying to get divorced)…….. Going back to College full time while working full time while doing the SINGLE MOM thing full time…… Living in a travel trailer for a few months……. Taking a job 3000 miles away and then moving with said 3 happy hooligans across the country to a city where I know no one…….. AND NOW… the trip back —–
WOW. I am SO HAPPY to be where we are today. Life is hectic and planning this trip BACK EAST is a bit stressful considering the chaos behind it all but I wouldn’t have it any other way. The kids are excited about living in a motor home… the kids are excited about seeing a couple new fun things along the way on the venture back east… and they are good. Very GOOD…. compared to where they were only one year ago. Educational experience overload. Yes.
What I hope to share with them someday is the foolishness that my mother instilled in me as a young woman. My mother would embarrass me and poke fun at me in public all the time. I realize now that it was her GOD GIVEN RIGHT as a MOTHER to do those things but at the time I completely (almost) hated her for doing those things to me. She got a kick out of it and now I honestly can not wait to play fun games with my kids and be all sorts of insane in public in front of my own children just to embarrass them so they can remember me as the crazy lady just as I remember my mother as that same woman (unfortunately she passed away when I was 21 so she never got the opportunity to meet my children)… but oh man.. she would have LOVED to had known them and been a grandmother.
Basically I saw this other picture (below) and thought of my mother.. and a slight twinge of pain shot through me as I had felt sad because I will never know that feeling of being FOOLISH with my mother because I still had so many embarrassing moments with her (towards the end of her life I was just coming out of my shell of not wanting to be embarrassed and I too would act a fool in public with her around.. together we were insane.. they should have locked us up .. LOL)
Basically I know her personality was a bit off the path as most and I love that about what she was and who she helped me become…. I wish I could get on these little motorized carts now with her and just run amuck in public… terrorizing the “normal” people out and about… all the while LAUGHING at ourselves and our insanity….
I day remembering the good times brings back so many happy thoughts/memories. 🙂 Keep those who you love CLOSE to you and ALWAYS make sure you tell those who you love… that you LOVE THEM… time is fleeting… it really is… and you never know when someone else’s or your time is going to run out.